It's time John and I have another state of the union.
I know my story of job loss is boring probably, but this is what's going on in the world now and this is what my life is about, hence, this is what the blog is about.
When I first got laid off I had every plan in the book, Thailand was one of those plans, writing a lot and getting paid for it was one, working creatively with my husband was another...working part time, volunteering, writing a ton...but I worry now that reality is setting in. John and I aren't on vacation anymore, I'm not going to be living off freelance writing jobs, he's not going to get some sweet-paying freelance work, in short...we're a little screwed.
I'm loathe to let go of my freedom dreams though, scared to let go of the life I had envisioned for myself. But I wake up each morning now with severe fear and wonder if what we need is the opposite of my freedom dreams. Do we both need to get as many jobs as we can no matter what they are? Should I start looking for 2nd shift jobs I can go to after my part time job? Does John need to go back to being a waiter? how long do we wait before we sell out?
I'm so confused, I just don't have any idea what to do now, how bad is it all going to get? Am I going to be thanking my lucky stars for my job at 7-11?