I've been a bit emotional lately. I'm working on some "inner" things and it's all about opening my eyes and seeing love and being a good person.
The book. The damn book. I love it so much. I love writing. But this is SO hard, so hard to get done, so hard to do, so hard to put so much into something, but so wonderful too of course. Writing really is my thing, but it makes me emotional.
ANYWAY, I was a bit weepy yesterday (cried at all kinds of things, I know, I know, yes, I'm probably getting my PERIOD OKAY?) and today I woke up, ran outside for the first time in months and it just felt so good.
Then I found a big stack of books that John and I had found at a junk sale one day. I've been waiting for a book to read, I've been reading so many comedy books and re-reading books that I already have, I was so happy to have a new book. I got on the train to head downtown and I read and read and read.
It's really been a long time. It felt delicious.
And I got off the train downtown and everyone is out, the weather is gorgeous, people are walking around in the sunshine again. Felt delicious.
And today is of course, Survivor Wednesday. The new season starts tonight and my favorite player of all time is coming back (AGAIN!) and I'm just so pleased.
Now I sit at the Cultural Center, my favorite place to work (although I'm sitting with three older people talking about their blood pressure - I can block it out, sort of), couple of hours of writing then I meet my handsome husband and brother for dinner.
So I'm better today, my favorite things are showing themselves and I am taking comfort in them as best I can.
Have an awesome day y'all.
3 comments:
Yay, go you!
I'm very familiar with the emotional exhaustion that comes from getting a book done: keep your chin up! A couple of months from now we'll both be the toast of Chicago!
Or something like that.
:)
I hear ya... I'm gearing up for show 5 of me and Ray's 6 week run, and in the home-stretch for the Windy City Burlesque Fest, and working 50 hours a week on top of all that. This fest is wearing me out, but I love it once it's here... performers from all over the world, thousands of burlesque fans coming out... the payoff is great, but the work beforehand is such a GRIND. It's menial and it's soul-sucking and you just want to quit.
But when it's done, and the fruits of your labor can be enjoyed... WOW!
That's the hard part, though... stepping back to ENJOY what you've created when you're in the midst of the cyclone. That's what I've been working on the last few years (and will probably have to keep working on for the rest of my life).
So that's my advice to you... step back and enjoy the madness of all this creation you're in the midst of. You'll miss it when it's gone.
Melisa,
YAY YOU TOO! I totally know you know and that's what so great, we can help each other and let each other know that yes, this is hard.
Hendo, that's great advice and something it can be hard to do sometimes, but stepping back to enjoy it is major. And I have no doubt that I will miss this when it's gone.
But that's why there's another one (hopefully) right around the corner!
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