Why? Survivor, that's why.
I've had some great experiences this week, meeting new people and getting some new ideas for the tour biz. My god, do I enjoy this more than I ever enjoyed any office job. I'm still amazed sometimes that this is what I'm doing.
Here's a personal myth I have about myself (had anyway). I've always thought that I was not a good manager. It has everything to do with my fear of responsibility. In any office job I've ever had I've been thankful that I was peon and had a boss who had to take responsibility. I've never "moved up" in any job for just that reason. When it was time to take something on, I'd sit back and let someone else do it. I wasn't interested and I didn't think I was good at it. There was one job I had where I had to manage about 15 people, I was okay at that, but I didn't enjoy it.
And a few thing now have come up where I've needed extra tour guides. Amazing how some people pop out of the woodwork and are perfect for this. I've had to train a few people so far and I'm really enjoying it! I like wrangling people together to practice a tour. I like being the point person (cause it's MINE), I'm good at training these guys and I enjoy it. Truly enjoy it. I wouldn't dare let anyone else take any of the responsibility, it's all mine.
So it wasn't that I wasn't a good manager, or that I really was afraid of responsibility, it just wasn't the right thing. It's nice, I'm learning to trust myself more and the realities of "if other people can do it, so can I" is so refreshing.
More. More work. More research, more responsibility - go ahead - bring it.