Sunday, May 31, 2009

Yay! Nay.

I don't know how to write this post without coming off as whiny and child-like, but so be it.

We're having a hard time in our little house, there's just a lot going on right now and poor John and the kidney stone and he broke his toe last night and he's been working all weekend, still so tired from the kidney stone and he had a show Friday and THEMS last night and we're trying to move and show the apartment and pack and we've barely got enough money to do it all and sigh...blah.

And I feel kind of badly because it's mostly John having to go through the hard parts, but it's hard to watch too, because well..I love him and we're married and what happens to him happens to me.

I've been thinking a lot about "marriage" lately. Going through this life bullshit right now is so married. I mean, even when we weren't married we were totally there for each other and committed, but something about all this just feels so "team" to me. Union. We are absolutely going through it together and in a way, even in the icky times and the busy times and the painful times, it feels okay to stretch the marriage a little, test it, feel it out.

I see my role right now as just keeping the other shit together, making sure the house is nice, the bed is made, the dog is walked, the apartment shown, the landlord called so John can rest and get better and work and smile a bit.

I'm putting my head down, knowing that things are going to be a little hairy for the next month or so and just deal with it.

I predict John and I are going to have a really excellent summer.


Mental P Mama said...

Life always happens whether you want it to or not. I have a feeling you all will be just fine. Sending percocet hugs to John;)

Hendo said...

He broke his toe, too? Holy CRAP!

You two will be through this rough water pretty soon, and, to complete the metaphor, it will be nothing but smooth sailing.

smussyolay said...

dude. i hear you. mercury is in retrograde or some shit. i always like to have something to blame all this random grossness on.

anyway, hang in there. it's nice that you guys have each other. like i say, "we don't all go crazy at the same time. we all take turns." not that john having physical problems is going crazy, but the point being that we all get to take turns being down, or sick, or whatever.

mega smusses your way.

Erica said...

It's all crummy right now, so that you can get it over with all at once. Better than stringing it all along for ages and ages. Soon it will clear, and things will look up. It will be a good summer for you, I just know it. Just get through each day the best you can right now, and if you need to rest, rest, and if you need to scream, scream, and if you need to cry, cry. And hold onto your husband and lean on your friends. We're here.

alcott said...

A wise Reverand once said.
"..i have no doubt, that united as a team, their combined strength of spirit will bring to their lives..a safe haven, a security of love, a light hearted mood and an emotional destiny."

and an even wiser friend reminded me the other day:

This too shall pass.

Hixx said...

Aw, you guys are the best, thank you.

Especially you Alcott, I needed that and it brought a tear to me eye.