I'm Kinda Hot Thursdays

Isn’t it fun when the world comes together and gives you the exact thing you were looking for? Isn’t it? Gah!

Anyway, I have a friend, Erin, who writes a great blog about her struggles (and gigantic wins) with the issue of weight, body image, fitness…she writes wonderfully and somehow manages to be inspiring and truthful and strong and vulnerable all at the same time. I really enjoy reading her blog, because she struggles like we all do, but she wins just as much and triumphs over her own fallacies.

Last night as I yawned and procrastinated for my run (which I finally managed to do), John suggested I start keeping track of my feelings, my weight, my troubles, my eating habits, as that will help bring out my truths into the open a little bit.

So…in honor of my friend Erin, and in honor of John’s good idea, and in honor of my own struggles, I think I’ll replace Kinda Hot Wednesday with I’m So Hot Thursdays. And in I’m So Hot Thursdays, I mean….sweating hot, not that I am hot. Which I am, depending what minute you ask me.

So in all truths and in really keeping some kind of track of what is going on with me and the miraculous discovery that indeed, I can run, I will start with my weight this morning and will update you each week as to my progress, what I’m feeling, thinking…

So, this morning, my weight was 150.5 and I'm running at a mix of 4.5 and 4.6 on the mill of tread for 30 minutes (with a five minute warm up/cool down on either side).

Yup, I just told you all my weight. Know what? Don’t care.

This is down 5.5 pounds from MARCH. MARCH. Do you hear me? I’ve basically lost a pound a month. A pound a month? Are you freaking kidding me? How can this be? I have never in my life run. Not really. Not ever. When I used to go to the gym when I wasn’t working, I lost a lot of weight, I got down to about 138. And that was from walking on the treadmill, high incline, medium speed.

But come on! I’m RUNNING FOR GODSAKES. And I ride my bike a lot. For me anyway. As I said to John last night, I’m moving now more than I ever have in my whole life…and I’m looking at a pound a month? Sheesh.

So the issue must be my food intake. In fact, I know it is. Also, I’m still getting to the point where I run like a normal person instead of basically walking at a faster pace. So the calories I burn in my run are not massive, but again, more than ever before.

And my eating, I would say I probably still eat as much as I did in March, but I am certainly not eating what I used to. In all honesty, I probably ate Mickey D’s 3 times a week. Not just fast food, I probably ate that 7 times a week (yup, the problem is breakfast sandwiches, I love them with all my heart, and cheeseburgers, and French fries, shit, I’m screwed) but now…man, I hardly ever have Mickey D’s! Hardly ever! The one time I had it a few weeks ago it made me so lazy and tired I haven’t gone back!

So I’m eating much better (still have work to do, not gonna lie, weekends kill me), I’m moving a ton, I’m increasing my running speed each and every week, and at some point, the excuse of “I’m just building muscle mass” is going to have to fall by the wayside.

But for today, we’ll settle ourselves in the knowledge that at least I haven’t gained 5 pounds since March right?

Right?