Well folks, you wanna know what today is?
Today is my three year anniversary with my boyfriend.
Yup, three years ago today (this morning, very early in the morning) the man I knew I was going to fall in love with left my apartment, finally with an inkling he might someday fall in love with me.
We went over the quick list of all that has changed since we got together, all that has gone on in our lives, for good or bad, better or worse. And so much has happened in three years, although so much hasn’t changed at all.
I know him three years better than I did before, and I love him three years more. The man I believed him to be when I fell in love with him is the man I still know today. Through all of the inner changes he and I have gone through as people, he still remains the kind, hilarious, supportive, handsome and charming man he always was.
When I pine for my time alone, as I still sometimes do, I’m shocked by how lonely I feel, how much he has become a part of my life. How I feel weird sitting alone, and have that thought that I wish he was there to hear.
How each day is “what are we going to do together today?” How each stupid chore or trip I have to make is made better by his presence. How when I think of my life in the future, it’s not just me I think about.
How other people’s relationships have evolved and changed, they’ve gotten married or divorced or pregnant, and how I firmly believe that each step we take and when, is exactly right and needs no force.
How even when I’m sure I’m supposed to be alone forever, and never give in to the romantic side of love, he makes me laugh and I know that this is where I prefer to be.
Happy anniversary love.
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