Thursday, June 30, 2011


Sorry lil blog. I've been away for awhile.

Sometimes I feel like this blog is someone I have to answer to (it's my own thing really) and I just haven't wanted to come over here and write lately.

I've had a bit of a knockdown, it's no biggy I guess, I don't really want to talk about it, maybe someday, but it was enough of a knockdown to knock me down. I made a mistake and it will (and has) bite me in the ass in the upcoming days.

I hate failing.

I know I have to, hell, I was on a pretty good roll. Sure, it's not like people are beating down my doors to go on tours, but they're getting much better, it's been awhile since I had a knockdown. I guess it's my time.

Everyone says if you don't have big failures, you'll never have big successes. If you're not failing, you're not trying, blah blah BLAH.

I want to hide under a rock in Thailand and never come back out.

I'll probably tell you all eventually, but for now, just trust me. Guh.

So I know it's not that I failed, it's how I failed that matters. I'm really working on being a grown up, an adult, to handle this well, to know that this happens to every single person on earth and to remember that it's all part of the process of being a stupid human being.

I also need to get out of town.

My whole life, everything I do, everything creative, logistical and everything in between takes place within 5 miles of everything else. My life is this city. I love this, don't get me wrong. But something I know about myself is to remember the big bad world out there. It's important that I see that there is so much outside of this city, whether that's traveling to India or traveling to Indiana - my life is bigger than what happens here.

So! Hopefully my husband and I will be taking a day trip to somewhere pretty, where they don't care about Rahm or unions or taste of Chicago. Somewhere pretty, with water and sand and tiny cafes where you sit outside and look at old people who have this whole thing figured out.

That's what I need.

But don't worry about the Hixx y'all, that's not what this is for.

The 4th of July is my favorite holiday, I don't plan on being a pisser for it. I just needed to say hi to you all and let you know that if you're failing too, I'm right behind you! And if you're not, thank your stars and enjoy it!

I want to go to Chick-Fil-A.


Erica said...

You should most definitely go to Chick-fil-a. It is good for the soul. But get the nuggets, not the sandwich, and drown your sorrows in sauces.

You are an inspiration to me, whether you are having a good day or a bad one.

Happy 4th, my sweet friend!

Kate said...

Missed you, Hixx! And I love you! And I'm not even going to say anything trite or cliche about your post, because you've heard it or thought it all before. Just remember you are awesome. Keep on with your bad self.

BigHig said...

Please let me know if I can help.

Hixx said...

Thanks guys, your kind and soft words really help. REALLY!

rebar said...

Offline a bit and just read this. I know that you know that I know that you are made of awesome sauce with a side of badass.

And everyone else knows it too.