I've entered a dangerous zone lately...I'm sure you've been able to kind of tell that over the blog...there's only so much energy I can give to these tours anymore and with Burningman coming up so quickly, well...it's easy to drop things. To let them go "for now," to sit around and wait for a month to pass by and let things be status quo for awhile.
However, my sense of guilt and my anger and frustration don't really let me do that, which is a good thing.
It's not that I don't want to fight for my tour, I do, but when does it become wasted energy to keep fighting for something? Maybe start something else?
But there is way more wasted energy in doing nothing.
So...many years ago I went to Sondheim speak, one of multiple times, but at this particular talk someone asked Sondheim for a piece of advice.
He said: Keep moving. Whatever you do, keep moving.
Then yesterday as I whined and whined to my brother, he said the same thing - keep moving.
So keep moving I will. I'm still going to market and maintain my tour, but I'm also not going to push it too hard.
I have an idea, I've had it for awhile. It's a creative idea, tied into my tour business somewhat. It's a daunting idea, a lot of work, A LOT of work. But I feel that the payoff, both financially and mentally will be really good.
It's a creative endeavor, one that as far as I can tell has not been done before.
It's an idea that when it comes to fruition will be, gosh, I dunno - 6 months from now? 8? Hard to say.
But I think this is what I need to work on now - starting it, doing it - moving.
And don't despair, I'm taking out a very prominent Boystown figure today, taking more advice of finding the movers and the shakers and letting them help me. I have a reservation for this weekend, maybe there will be more...
But I also think I need to let it go - for my own sanity - and let this Boystown Tour breathe on it's own.
And I need to to get myself to the desert.