For a variety of reasons, most being specifics I don't really want to talk about, I feel like I'm going to jump out of my skin!
It's mostly good I think, mostly.
In god's honest truth y'all, these Boystown Tours are sparsely populated. I'm not looking for advice necessarily, I know what to do and I'm doing it (really fun concierge tour being planned) but ARGH, it's pissing me off. And what's pissing me off about it is my own lack of creativity. The tour is great, I love it...but I keep going back to these MSM ways of advertising it. Time Out here, Chicagoist...these are a huge help, but COME ON! Why is no one coming omg! And I want to do something amazing and creative to market it, but I'm so freaking rigid and repressed and white girl from the midwest, I just sit around sending out press releases.
This frustration with my own creativity is definitely carrying over to other parts of my life. What it is, I think, is that I feel better than I'm doing. I'm totes awesome, I have the time to do right and a husband who is supporting me while I do so, SO WHERE IS THE AWESOME OUTPUT?
Awesome is great internalized, but why am I having a problem getting it out to the world? Why can't I think beyond a blog post and a press release?
OMG I"M TURNING 40! Soon.
The P90X is killing me too, still seeing results, but why am I not BUFF? Where is the extra percentage of awesome that is not manifesting itself?
WHY AM I NOT FAMOUS AND RICH?
I should be.