It's no surprise to me or anyone else that some days are going to be harder than others right? I'm ready for that and aware of that and mostly prepared for that.
Ow, I hurt myself, my ribcage...not sure if its from Jillian or from the last of my coughing but it hurts like a mother...except when I'm sitting at the computer writing...so thats a plus! Still waiting for a paycheck to come through, still waiting for phone calls, there's a lot of waiting going on in this house. That's cool universe, test my patience - I'll win every time.
Here's the thing, even though I woke up this morning wanting nothing else to do then lie on the couch and watch FNL and even though - since I'm self-employed - I totally have the option of doing that, I'm not. Which for someone with my history is HUGE people. Really. I have blown off at least half my life not doing what I was supposed to.
There is no hope of removing the woman who wants to sit on the couch and watch TV, she will always be with me, but I'm pleased with myself because even in the times where I don't want to work, where I want to hide and pull the shades, there is a stronger me who is unwilling to let that happen.
Still, Dr. Oz is on at four and John did get me Friday Night Lights and it is Thursday and Survivor is on and The Office and 30 Rock and we never did get to the Top Chef from last night....