ISHT - Flux Your Muscles

145, good to know some things never change. I like how in my ever-changing life, it’s my stupid weight that remains my constant.

So, I gotta tell you that another crink in the fabric of my comfortable life has … crinked. It is job related, it is a very large change and it is not to my benefit (I don’t believe so anyway) and will really change things for me and my co-workers. It’s a sad thing for me, another constant that is no longer constant.

But my lord, when I heard this news this morning, something flipped, or fell off, or put back on, or something.

It is ridiculous what is going on right now and this pushed this over the edge so I could see in full page view the ridiculousness.

So be it! SO BE IT! I’m fascinated now by what is going on, trying to find meaning in it, I believe that I believe that there are no coincidences. So for two really huge life/work changes happening for me and John at the exact same time…well…someone is trying to tell me something, and I plan to listen.

For now, I’m pleased with the constants I do have (for now, for today, for this very moment):

I’m marrying an amazing and hilarious man.
I’m going on a run tonight, you better believe it.
I’m having something delicious for dinner tonight, something I love, maybe cheeseburgers, eat while ye may.

And finally, me.

Me, I’m the constant. I’m the most constant of all the constantnesstessessss.

I am the one thing that I know will always be okay, I am the one thing I can rely on; I am the one thing that I wake up with in the morning and go to bed with at night.

I told John today I’m totally pulling a Buddha. I am the river, solid on the bottom and going with the flow on the top. I am a tree, rooted into the ground but my leaves and trunk move with the wind.

I am the goddamn Sears Tower, rooted a mile into the earth with a sway of 8 inches on either side.

Okay universe, you want me to change things? You want me to accept the transience of material wealth? You want me to not be attached to names and titles and things?

I got you. I totally got you. I’m down with it. Let’s play.