I’m So Hot Thursday!
Well, the continuous battle continues. I honestly am so tired of stopping myself from having things I could cry. But it’s all part of this battle and I swear I’m doing my best.
At least I haven’t gained anything in the past week! Right? RIGHT?!
The exercise has been on the wane a bit, due to the weather and not feeling well. I can’t believe I was ever crazy enough to think I enjoyed running on the treadmill. Yuck. I mean, I’m glad I have it but, yeech. The past two times I’ve run on it I did some speed things and some running uphill things, both times almost killing myself completely. It’s just so boring and that whole fresh air thing ….
Anyway, I need to work on my “rewards”. That’s essentially what’s going on here. I need to learn how to reward myself without using food to do it. Which is hard, because I want to reward myself for not smoking (somehow, a bath just doesn’t sound as delicious as a cheeseburger) and I need to reward myself for not eating crap, because generally what I’ll do (and did as a smoker) was to eat well for a day or two and then BOOM, I get to reward myself for eating better by eating chicken fingers.
Hello vicious cycle, how you doin?
I’ve also been working on strengthening my core. Oh my gosh, I didn’t really realize how weak I was till I started doing some of these exercises, yikes. Hixx needs to step it up a notch or five.
So I’m going to run outside tonight for sure, if it stops raining hell-ice maybe I can keep doing it and just get past the new year without falling into a weeping heap or gaining a gajillion pounds.
If I can get out without doing either one of those things, I’ll be happy.