Stop Worrying About What Everyone Else Thinks

Wow. Whirlwind. Some day…soon, the whirlwind will quiet down. This I know.

So let’s see, Friday night was actually pretty quiet, I stayed in and hung with John and the dog, we played Cribbage and ate cheeseburgers and had a very quiet night, which was good, because Saturday was something…

I woke up and rode to moms; it was a beautiful day and a beautiful ride, but a hard one…wind or some such. Rode home like a madwoman, ran into the house for two seconds and ran right out for a 3:30 tour. There were some people I knew and my brother who was coming for the second time and I really wanted to do a good job, and I did! I did!

Once off the boat, into my “receiving line” when I say hello and goodbye to everyone, I was getting lots of compliments, one particular guy called me a “phenom”. What an excellent thing to be called. Then a guy standing in line waiting for the next tour was watching and listening as everyone got off and he turned and asked me if I was giving their tour, I said no and he said “that’s too bad, because everyone seems to think you’re amazing”, which was just really nice.

The crazy thing about Apes (yes this all ties together) is that sometimes you start to doubt yourself about certain things, now granted, I think this is why Apes is such a great thing to do (there will be a final post later of everything I’ve learned from the show), but if you don’t get points, or don’t get this or that, you start to wonder if you’re as fabulous as you think you are, and the tours are such a great release…I KNOW I’m good at this, and if you know me, you’ll know there’s really not that much I think I’m great at…but tours? I know I give good tour and it’s a really nice to get validation from 100 or so people on a beautiful day in the sunshine…and a couple extra bucks to boot.

Sunday we cleaned, sat in our new chairs, took a long walk, ate homemade gyros and I watched a couple of Buffy’s.

A couple more weeks of really hard work, then a couple of months of really hard work on the book, and then? REWARDS. Or…let’s hope so at least. Cause I’m all about rewards.