God is in the details, thats why I'm going to hell

I had a friend, who I adore, who told me that her work is driving her crazy. It’s very exacting work, similar to what I do. Real Estate closings and signatures and numbers and millions of copies of paper.

She was fed up and sad, because she kept making stupid mistakes and they were getting her in trouble.

I felt sympathetic and then partially relieved, because I too have the same issues.

I miss things, I forget things, I misplace things, and I skip over things. My mind doesn’t hold on to information like other minds do. When asked what I did last week, I get confused. I have to write every little thing down or I will forget, and then forget where I wrote it down.

And this is why I’m afraid of responsibility at work. I like having someone to double check what I’m doing. I don’t like things being left to only me, it makes me extremely nervous. I enjoy having a boss who takes the full-fall if something goes wrong. I shy away from being “in charge” of something.

I have learned to some degree, how to take care of this handicap, like writing everything down, like checking my own work a bazillion times over, by sticking sticky notes everywhere, but still…eventually, something will fall through the cracks.

It’s very annoying and makes me feel ridiculous sometimes, especially when I notice that not everyone is good at things like this. And there are things I’m really great at, that other people struggle with. I’m really good at setting up organization plans, at getting things in the right place at the right time and having streamlined and make sense. It’s just this detail work is not my forte.

Good thing I’m working in the legal department! HA!