Mamayaya

In my quest for peace and happiness, I do what every middle aged (oh yes I am, my mother told me so) woman does.

I buy self help books.

And the one I have now, by Eckhart Tolle, is all about ego (like “id” ego, not “pride” ego) and how dangerous it is and how it feeds on all things dysfunctional and how most of your anger and resentment is based on the ego yaya.

I’m not really falling for it, a lot of it is interesting and I know fo shizzle I’m way too stuck on material things. But so far, his answer for “suffering” is pfut. He says, step back, observe it, suffering is just another emotion placed on the unconscious mind and its how you deal with the suffering that makes it bad or worse. He makes it sound so easy, and it isn’t and I resent that! He would say I resent it because my ego isn’t being fed, but his ego can bite my ego, cause it just isn’t that easy. He also talks a lot about our identity, how we perfect it, how we rely on it, how what we have is not who we are yaya, how when you speak differently to your boss, than you do to your friends, than you do to your partner, that’s all ego feeding. It’s also making your way in the world, but eh..

So I’m reading and he’s talking about parents and parenting and how you have to be the “Observer” of I, rather than the “thinking” of I and yaya. I find this idea of “the observer” to be quite fascinating and have been hearing more and more about it…but then, in the middle of nowhere, a quote from Ram Daas! Who says “If you believe you are so enlightened, go stay with your parents for a week”. Love it. Ram Daas is the new Heath Ledger.

Huh?