Tuesday, February 08, 2005

Anger Management

I've been noticing my anger lately. Not my real anger, but my "annoyance" anger, which is probably the meanest thoughts I have. Here are the three situations where I think the worst of people, but also for the shortest amount of time and they are definitely, definitely irrational. So bear with me. These are the situations where the meanest thoughts go through my brain and then they're out:

#1-When I'm busy at work and I hear the whine of a sales person calling me from the back. It absolutely drives me crazy and I think terrible thoughts about that person for a millisecond.

#2-Walking down the Loop streets at rush hour. Man, I can get really angry at people for just not moving to the right if they're walking slowly. AGAIN, I realize these are unsubstantiated and unfair. BUT COME ON PEOPLE. It's just like driving, slow in the right hand land, faster passers on the left. If you can't get that, don't walk here.

#3-probably my most evil and unfair thoughts of all. But at the gym, about 35 minutes into a 45 minute spin class and I'm sweaty and tired and about to cry and my incredibly nice spin teacher says "COME ON! GIVE ME ALL YOU GOT, JUST A LITTLE BIT MORE, COME ON YOU GUYS", the meanest meanest words come in to my head. I swear at her, I yell at her and for just a few seconds, until my next rest stop, I'm as mad at her as I've ever been at anyone.

So there you go, I find myself to be even keeled MOSTLY and try to have patience with things. But these three things will send me over the edge every time.

Now back to my Henry Ives Cobb, fascinating, but not as fascinating as anger.

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