This is the most Friday feeling Thursday ever.
So guess what? Guess what? 148 y’all! Feels really good! Maybe everything is going to start coming together now! Right when I’m having a week when I’m not exercising! Ever since my “neck event” of a few months ago the pain kind of keeps coming back every now and again, its pretty painful this time around and I didn’t catch it early enough and now its almost gone, but I’ve spent the week taking it really easy, lots of regular walking, but not much exercising. I kind of miss it.
Anyway, I’ve been thinking about so many things! Earlier this week Erin (she’s been in my blog every week now huh?) pointed out this great blog and it absolutely has thrown me into a tailspin.
Essentially, what’s going on here is that this woman is trying to eat what her body wants when she wants it….
That could be Twinkies, or ho ho’s or pizza or vegetables or a salad or a turkey sandwich. It is the most fascinating thing and I cannot believe that it is the most fascinating thing. I cannot believe that this idea is so foreign to me. “Eat what you want when you want it”
I honestly have no idea how to do that exactly. I don’t think I’ve ever done that in my life. I’m not a big dieter, never have been, right? The weighing of the chicken and such, but for my entire life, since I can remember, I have been worried/conscious/concerned and horrified by eating. I used to eat terribly and felt terribly about it, now I eat much better and feel better about it, but every single day, every moment it is a concern, an active thought. What would it feel like really, to listen to your body and eat what it wants with absolutely no guilt, no judgments? I really have no idea.
I’m not sure I can do it…reading around, it seems like starting this idea is so hard, because we/women/I feel like we’re going to eat EVERYTHING and get really fat. If I give myself the permission to eat whatever I want, I’m going to eat Big Macs and pizza every day.
But they say that it doesn’t happen like that, because that is still eating with your emotions, if you eat what your BODY wants, you end up eating much more healthily than you think. Yeah, you might eat 5 pieces of pizza one day, but you won’t want pizza again for awhile, and your body will probably honestly crave something really good for you the next day…
I really don’t know if I could do this, or want to, I’m honestly scared of it. And now that maybe I’m losing weight doing what I’m doing? Forcefully making myself eat better and exercise? Why would I stop doing that? Isn’t that good for me? (no one on this un-diet says to stop exercising! if it feels good, do it kind of thing, and most bodies like exercise!)
What does it feel like to stop worrying and working on what you eat and just…eat? It is really freaking me out.
2 comments:
It freaks me out, too. For real. Definitely valuable food-for-thought, though.
two things ...
at one point it was pointed out to me or i somehow came to the conclusion that i had nearly as much of an 'eating disorder' as my bulimic friend. i didn't throw up and cause myself as much physical damage, but the amount of time i spent worrying about my body or what i ate or didn't eat and how much i didn't like my body or how much i weighed or how much other people weighed in comparison to me or how i didn't eat all day and then ate really crappy came pretty damn close. that was kind of hard to swallow (pun sort of intended).
two. that 'i can make you thin' guy on TLC basically advocates the eat what you want philosophy. he says that naturally thin people eat what they want when they want -- they don't think about it. period. and for people who have gotten out of sync with their bodies, we have to take extra steps to get back in line with it. the eating consciously thing ... no tv, radio, reading, extraneous stuff when eating. just eating. putting the food/fork down between EVERY bite. chewing slowly. he says eat every time you want, but the moment you feel full, stop. there were a couple other techniques to separate real hunger from emotional eating. it was all really interesting.
i love reading your stuff on this.
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