Tics and tocks

It’s Friday!

Going out of town again this weekend, but it’s for fun stuff, so it’s okay. I just find it kinda hard to get done what I need to get done…but alas…

I think I’ve found since I quit smoking that I’m really concerned about the apartment’s cleanliness. I don’t know what this is, maybe I was like this before, I don’t know. But it has always been the case that little fur balls on the floor drive me bananas, but lately, if the apartment is messy, so is my head.

I think it comes less from being an “everything has to be clean” person, than it comes from “when the apartment is messy it is a visual manifestation of all the things I need to do”. You know what I mean?If there’s a pile of laundry, a messy bathroom, fur balls on the floor, dishes in the sink, I get overwhelmed that there is “so much to do”. And again, things about weddings or work, or whatever, all start piling up because the bathroom needs to be cleaned.

If the house is clean, everything else seems manageable. I don’t know, maybe it’s all the getting old symptoms again.

In any case, it looks like I’m probably staying in tonight so that I can take care of what I need to take care of so my brain doesn’t go all kablooey. Because you know what? Next weekend is all filled up too, and my guess is, the weekend after that, after that and after that will be too, until September 20, 2008. Eeek!