Thank you

Wow.

Due to friends, and a weird wake up and a busy-more-than-usual day, I’m unfocused and over-thinking. It’s nothing horrible, but sometimes I sink into my own head, and it takes someone else to drag me out.

Today is one of those days.

Anyway, last night I had dinner with one of my very best friends John. He was my boss at the Improv Comedy Club that used to be on Wells, many moons ago. We connected instantly and is no doubt, my missing 4th brother. He even loves my mom, and my mom loves him. He understands me completely, without me ever even having to speak. He can make me pee in my pants with laughter, and my memories of sitting in that shitty box office 10 years ago, will always be one of the greatest times of my life.

He is as confused as I am about his life, his creative track. He’s an actor, a very good one, without the professional drive. He will take what comes his way, but finds it hard to seek it out. He appreciates comfort, and quiet nights, and pretty days in his garden, and he is just an exceptional human being.

So last night as we’re chatting away the same way we did a thousand years ago, he tells me that out of all the women he’s known, over his whole lifetime, actresses, directors, artists, that I am the most creative one he’s ever known.

This my friends, will go down in history as one of the best compliments I’ve ever had.

The only other one that goes along with it, is when a friend told another of her friends, that I am the type of person she would like to be. Yowks!

It’s wonderful to hear that isn’t it? To get validation that you’re okay? To counteract all those apologies with something nice about yourself?

I needed last night and today, to pull me out of my shame and apologizing, and realizing that more important things are going on, then the endless circles in my head.